Lost and insecure, You found me

As the exams approach and I’m not longer in week 12 and it’s swotvac already, the frequency of my blog updates have dramatically increased as well.

I can even write journal entries for it.

Dr Exams
Cr Blog posts

Okay, that doesn’t make sense. Exams are an asset cause they’ve got future benefit, can be reliably measured (stupid h1s, h2s and whatnot) and they are in my control (sort of). Blog posts are a liability because (opps. I can’t remember the accounting definitions). But personally, they are a liability because they steal my time from studying.

This is so not making sense to most of my readers. I’m sure.

I don’t know. Everyone knows that exams are not the end of the world and they are nothing compared to half most of the things that go on in our daily lives. There’s so much more in this world than exams! I mean just think about the people fighting for their lives daily and just wanting some bit of education. And yes, that puts me to shame that I complain about studying. Yet, it hasn’t stopped me from whining and being a sukilala. Sigh.

But right now, it just seems that exams are the end of the world for most of us, if not, all.

Okay, maybe end of the world is kinda too dramatic. But you do get the point right?

Our lives take a shift when exams come. Just a look at my study table and it really scares me. I’ve got so many things here and it’s kinda getting out of control. My chocolate intake has increased A LOT. And people who know me know that I’m not a chocolate fan. I’ve been breaking out (freaks out!) and yeah.

Most importantly, do our exams make us compromise a little too much sometimes?

Compromising my time? Oh yes, certainly.

Compromising God’s promises? Ohmygosh, like all the time.

Why is that some of us always think that God can’t pull through us through this time? Are you going to tell me He wasn’t faithful last time round. My God! He has been faithful on every single occasion/phase of my life! Things don’t always turn out the way I want them to. In fact, most of the time they don’t!

But they do work out for the best unexpectedly. Isn’t He a God of surprises?

Maybe you should just take some time off this swotvac and you know, just chill and watch the world go by. PLEASE don’t slack though. When I say some time, I mean like half a day. I don’t mean like 3 days chilling at the beach and drinking lemonade.

The panic is so not worth it. God never panics. And since we’re created in His image, we shouldn’t panic too. It isn’t our nature because it isn’t His nature!!

The enemy panics cause it knows it’s going to lose. Our victory has been won on the cross. Rejoicing is our nature!! Slacking isn’t our nature either. God doesn’t slack. Jesus walked the face of the earth, He didn’t just sit at a corner and drank wine. Faith without actions is dead.

So that’s all!

I need to go back to Accounting for Income Tax.

Toodles world!

xoxo

It’s amazing

Just got back from Grace’s Birthday Party at Carlton Gardens. Fun stuff =)

Good food. Good company!

I was talking to Ben on adium. Actually, I still am. But anywayy. I was talking about studying accounting soon and I said this:

“haha cause i’ve got heaps to cover for law. worst subject of my life”

And Ben said this “who needs to know law when grace abounds”

Such a good line! Seriouslyyyy. Corp Law should meet the Bible. Then I’ll get a H1. I think…. hahaha.

It’s such a warm night! Today was like hot hot hot. Terrible weatherrr! Give me my 17degrees againnnn!!! I think the optimum temperature range for me to survive is between 15 degrees C and 20 degrees C.

I’ve been on the phone with Jon Lim. I guess there isn’t much to blog about anymore. Haha.

Toodles world!

xoxo

‘Cause I know better not to be friends with boys with girlfriends

Awesome testimony about my Chinese oral exam! But I don’t want to post it up here, so come ask me if you want!!

I’m currently ill. Exhaustion + Weather Change = Not good for Shiyou

I’m really bad at adapting to weather changes. Hot Cold Hot Cold and I just don’t get along.

Don’t be embarrassed, don’t be afraid, don’t let your dreams slip away.
Don’t be scared of using your gift — everybody has a gift.
Never give up, never let it die,
Trust your instincts, and most importantly…
You’ve got nothing to lose, so just go for it!

- “It’s Amazing” by Jem

That’s like a part of the song. This song is quite uplifting I must say. Haha.

I guess your instincts here can be replaced by the Holy Spirit.

My exams are going to end in less than a month! So exciting! I can’t wait.

I’m going to post up my exam timetable there —>

I just printed 43 pages worth of Generating the Wealth of Nations notes.

There’s so much to study. So little time.

I spoke to my sister and erm my brother-in-law two nights ago. It was good =) It’s good to know that my sister married an awesome man of God and that he’s doing incredible things in his workplace!

But man, are international calls expensive!!!

And since I’m no longer working at the end of the year, I hope my parents increase my allowance next year. Hee.

So yes, I’m going back to Singapore in early Dec and coming back to Melbourne in early Jan. Can’t wait! Wheeeeeeee.

Oh and I’ve gotta re-enrol for 2010 soon! I don’t know if I want to take Econometrics next year or should I do another finance subject or like do another breadth subject.

Oh decisions decisions decisions.

This is an entry filled with random sentences. I shall stop blabbering.

Toodles world!

xoxo

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So I really need a partner for my Chinese oral exam. It’s making me really freaked out and I nearly died during my 2 hours of Chinese class today cause that was all I thought about.

I mean I know that ultimately if I really don’t have a partner, I won’t die because the subject coordinator will probably find me one- you know one of those friendless people too. Yes, Chinese tut is my friendless tut.

But there’s no way I’m going to settle for that.

I’m praying for a partner- a good one (not too good, cause they would mean the prcs and I honestly don’t understand a single thing they say). My oral exam is a debate, so yes, a good partner is important. We need to meet up and discuss. So no slackers!

And I know my God will see me through this. I know this might seem small and trivial to most people. But honestly, when you’re stuck in this, it’s not. My God going to find me a partner! And not just any partner, but a good one!

I’m not working for summer school this year and so I’ll be going home a lot earlier than expected! So that’s good news I suppose.

I’ve been studying for so long. My brain’s fried. Seriously.

I really need God.

I know He will pull through anything for me.

And inside, a woman of strength will rise up.

I did accounting just now. And man, depreciation is terrible!! Ahhhh. I’ve never liked it since I started studying accounting in like year 1. Save meee!

Law now. Not any better. In fact, worse off!!

But yes, I’m going back to it now.

Toodles world!

xoxo

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It’s week 12.

And it’s definitely crunch time.

Crunch crunch crunch.

And it’s not the time to get distracted.

Ooo facebook!

Toodles world!

xoxo

Tattoo your name across my heart

Sunnies in Cotton On!

This is a nice photo. I like it. Although I must say the sunnies are weird on me and they are so darn huge!

Flare tonight was good! Or should I say last night. Anyhow, I really like the contemporary pieces- as always, nothing new there. That’s like my favourite genre of dance anyway.

So after flare, Debs, Brenda, Grace, Joanna, Wynn, Diane and I went to Cotton On along Lygon and we did all sorts of rubbish there. Then we went to Notturno for supper! I think that’s how it’s spelt.

I want a pair of sunnies! But I can’t because I don’t wear contacts. And don’t ask me why I don’t wear them.

I’m currently sitting in front of my laptop going crazy about my internet issue. But worst of all, my THICK accounting textbook is on my lap right now and it has caused my left foot to go all numb on me. Oh wells. The pains accounting give you- metaphorically and literally. Haha.

I’ve done a huge part of Task 1 on my tut and I left some bits blank. I’m going to do Task 2 now- and yes, it is the last as well. I hope the textbook will help me.

God, give me strength. I need to pull through till 26th Nov.

Toodles world!

xoxo

You are the rock on which I stand

This bridge of this song has been stuck in my head since I got up, which is not too long ago, but long enough. Actually, quite long, really.

You are my God
The Great I am
And You are the rock on which I stand
And You reign
You reign
And You reign
You reign

I guess it’s that time of the semester again. And yes, everyone knows what I mean. It isn’t that hard to know what I’m talking about.

And whenever that time comes, I can’t help but to think more about home. Not really my family and dog and that kinda thing. But more of the comforts of home. Laundry done and folded. Food on the table et cetera.

No, I’m not getting all homesick and dramatic. So don’t worry.

But I guess this song is just reassuring me that my God is bigger than anything. Exams are no big deal to Him. And He lives in me. So exams shouldn’t be a big deal to me either!

I know that faith without actions are dead. So really, all I need to do is study hard, and throw everything to Him. He will provide the right answers during my exams. He will drop me exam hints while I’m studying.

And I’m so convinced of it because I know He is real.

No matter how many times people just to tell me He isn’t real, based on all those documentaries on like discovery or whatever, I know He is real because I have felt His presence before. And no matter what others say and what facts you throw out at me and I do sway at times, those encounters were real and I can’t just put them behind me, disregarding them and think they were a figment of my imagination, simply because they aren’t.

On a random note, my job interview results should be out tomorrow and I’m getting my Generating the Wealth of Nations essay back next Monday during tut. Pray for me! I really want the job and I’m praying for an H1 for my essay!

Anyway, and I guess the question of “Are you staying or leaving” have been asked a lot more this semester and I won’t expect it to decrease next year. And yes, the answer is still the same- I don’t know.

Oh well, I’ll be a final year student next year and I guess it’s time to attend more career fairs and stuff. There’s one next year in March. I know, it is far from now and all that kinda thing. But people who know me know that I always plan ahead. More often that not, God intervenes and He somehow weaves in an even bigger plan- which is really cool.

So yes, I throw my life unto all that You are.

Toodles world!

xoxo

p.s. I really want my hair to grow 6 inches now. According to some random internet source, that takes a year to grow. Sigh. I don’t know why, but I want really long hair now! And I mean now now now!!

I’m infected by the sound

I’m not being arrogant or anything.

I just finished dinner and man, do I  make the best wantons in Victoria.

They test like the ones my mom makes. Okay, her’s are better. But you get the point!

Now I’m stuffed full! I’m going to wash up. Stone for a bit and watch Simpsons. Then I’ll study and watch Aussie Ladette to Lady.

Then I’ll study again till some ungodly hour. Maybe not, I think I want to sleep earlier tonight. According to my study exam timetable, I don’t have that much to get through tonight. But I always do have heaps to go through during the weekend. Bahh.

I took a personal night off last night. Awesome-ness!

And I found this awesome food blog. And I don’t usually like food blogs. In fact, I don’t know of one that I like. So that’s saying something!

I’m starting to feel sleepy. Not good! Ahhh.

I’m going to stone, then wash up.

Toodles world!

xoxo

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I found this online and I just had to put it here!

That’s supposedly a Chinese’s food hierarchy. Haha.

I’m your biggest fan

I think I just made like 60 wontons or something. I’ve froze them and I can’t wait to eat them soon!

I’m probably gonna make more this weekend. They are easy to make and store and fast when you cook them! Oh and above all, yummylicious!! It’s also quite therapeutic I must say, I mean when you wrap them of course.

Oh I’m so annoyed with my internet. I’ve apparently used 5.4GB in the last 20days. Everyone who knows Shiyou knows that that is impossible. And no, no one else has been using mine. I changed my password and all that crap already. I can barely use 2GB in like a month!!!

So being the Singaporean that I am, I obviously, complained to cs.

I hope they get back to me soon!! I don’t have much left for the next 10+days! Poo. And everyone knows that although I don’t use a lot of internet, I do use it everyday to do random things.

I realised that when people I usually speak to on msn don’t initiate conversations with me, I won’t talk to them. When I said talk, I meant like leisure chatting. Cause there are just some people who I talk to a heap more on msn and not in real life or phone or text.

I don’t know. It’s just not very me to initiate things at times. I know, it’s not a trait to be proud of. It might be the same reason as to why I don’t add people on facebook or something. Stupid, yes I know.

Thank God he initiated to reconcile his relationship with mankind. If he didn’t initiate to send Jesus to earth to die on the cross for our sins, so that He could have relationship with us, I don’t think I would have done anything either. Hypothetically, I’m saying if I could have done something about it. But we all know we can’t cause salvation is not earned, but given through His grace.

Oh have I mentioned? It’s going to be so ridiculously hot tomorrow! Rarrr.

I think I’m going to grab some yogurt and get started on some work soon. But soon is subjective. So oh well!

Toodles world!

xoxo