I live to see this generation saved.

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: Today by Planetshakers
Mood: Happy =)

“I was just wondering if it was true that people are more willing, to allow you to be strict with them if they knew that you really loved them.”
-Zachary Young

It was his “passing random thought (prt)” in his latest entry.

And well, I think it’s only true for some people. Like out of my don’t know how many friends, I think there’s only 1 or 2 who I can be so straightforward with and tell them off if they’re doing something wrong or like correct them about a particular quality that they have which isn’t biblical or whatnot and it is always out of love. And this 1 is really my super super close and good friend and the thing is, she does the same to me.

I mean, if you’re not happy with me, I’m really a in-your-face person. So yeah. Just talk to me! Seriously!

And for some people, I want to be honest with them, but I can’t. Simply because I know they’ll get all offended and well, yeah.

But if there’s one thing I learnt in Yhope that is so so awesome possum. It’s definitely the sandwich model.

-Affirm
-Correct
-Encourage

It never fails! Seriously!

BREAK-OUT later on tonight! I’m soooo pumped! Wheee!

Okay, I’m actually going to sleep early tonight

Be SHOCKED! Haha.

Toodles world!

xoxo

Never was and never will be.

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: Everybody’s fool by Evanescene
Mood: Just woke up. HAHA.

Okay, my body clock is sooooo screwed up. I’ve been sleeping at like 5, 6 am and waking up at like 4pm. SIGH.

Time to do something about it. I’ve gotta get up at 10am tomorrow and probably Sunday and like 11am on Monday. Pfft.

And I’ve been thinking really hard about what to wear for Monday! Hmm.

Had dinner ar Roy’s with Sharon, Jon Tan, Roy, Tim, Roy’s uncle, Diane. We wanted to watch X-Files in the theatre, but we ended up watching love actually on the telly. But then again, Jon Tan and Tim missed half the movie. Sharon refused to watch it. Roy didn’t watch it. Alvin and Kern came. Only Kern watched it. So well, yeah.

I think I’ve been incredibly impatient these few days and it’s amazing how everyone is taking it.

The moment of truth is here and I absolutely don’t know how I should go about approaching the matter and how both of us would take it. Awkward much? Then again, I’ve done my part.

Anyway.

Toodles world!

xoxo

I want to go somewhere. ANYWHERE. Just out of Melbourne and Singapore. I want to go to Milan. But that’s provided if I’ve got like the air ticket, good accomodation and like 10K Euros. Just for 3 days! Money strictly for consumption and shopping purposes only! And I want to go alone!

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Venue: My apartment
Listening to: -
Mood: Tired

Diane and I did not sleep much last night. Probably 3 hours max? Sigh. The things we do. We wanted to stay up all night and then head off to Rosemary’s farewell breakfast. But that obviously failed terribly. So had a nice breakfast =)

Then came home for like half an hour and went over to Tim’s with some people, so that we could go to this strange place which is like 4 stops from flinders? Was it 4? Went to the party supplies place which sold awesome stuff =) We bought HEAPS for this coming break-out.

Then I had dinner at Papa Gino’s with some friends.

So that’s it for my short update.

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I miss …

I want to go to Disneyworld and sit all the rides so that I wouldn’t have to think about anything! I want to go to Vegas because that’s apparently where you can be who you want to be [not in a bad way]. Alternatively, I want to go to Holland to see all the tulips!

So much has been happening, I don’t know if my brain can absorb everything. I seem so incredibly forgetful these days and I have got absolutely no idea why. I can’t remember what I’m supposed to do like the next day or like two days later et cetera. I can’t remember my lunch/coffee/dinner appointments.

So if you ask me out, MAKE SURE I PUT A NOTE DOWN IN MY CELL.

Okay, I’m out.

Flipping tired. I’m amazed that it’s closed to 3am and I’m still pretty alive.

I miss …

xoxo

All this time we finally know each other.

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: With Love by Hilary Duff
Mood: Happy!

Hello everybodyyy! Went shopping with Diane today! Bought two tops =) And I finally found my ideal coat. Like after searching for weeks. But uh.. I’m not getting it. So much so for expensive taste.. Yeah, you kinda get the idea, don’t you?

Had dinner with my Urbanlife and we watched Dark Knight =) I wouldnt say it was fabulous, but nonetheless, a good film! Then a couple of us decided to walk and have supper along the way. We went to like 10000 cafes cause heaps of them weren’t open anymore. Talk about inconveniences.

We’re just electrons circling around and not a proton and an electron!

I’ve got a Jason Mraz ticket that I don’t need. So I’m going to sell my ticket. Please leave a comment and I’ll get back to you! It’s on 12th Aug at somewhere in flinders and yeah.

I’m feeling pretty restrained now. There’s always this fine line for everything, and so where do we draw that fine line? I wouldn’t say it’s hard cause I’m really quite a practical/logical person who can’t be bothered about what’s the nicest thing to do, but rather, what’s the best and right thing to do. Feelings and business don’t go together at all.

So come again, how many hearts broken?

And I’ve been thinking about my future recently. And honestly, I feel so pfft. I mean, I’ve always known that to get into a good business school next time, I’ve got to get really good grades and all that jazz. And it’s also really about God’s favour and grace. And then I started thinking about that all-so-ideal plan that I always had, and that I always tell people about. But honestly and seriously, do I really want to do that? I get all idealistic about it, but then, I get all practical about it again. Sigh. I must really learn to operate in the supernatural, and not that natural. And have faith!! I remember Pastor Rob praying about faith for me.

It’s such a sister or brother way- pick one kinda thing.

God has been so so awesome and like… I guess I just really need to know what I truly desire.

I was talking to Scott and I asked him how people would know whether it’s the right time for them to get into a relationship. And he told me that you’ll just know it and like, it’s when other parts of your life fall into place, and when you truly know your place in the Kingdom of God and like your ministry and stuff are all cool.

Now my question is, how would you know that your life has fallen into place? Or is it… by asking such a question, shows my lack in understanding and hence, my life isn’t all right?

Whatever it is, I’m thankful for my leaders and friends.

Okay. I’ve got to get up in 6 hours.

So toodles world!

xoxo

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Venue: My apartment
Listening to: Nothing
Mood: Flipping tired

Hello! I had an awesome week and I’m so so tired right now. My right arm is so sore, it’s seriously not funny. It reminds me of those crazy muscle aches I had in secondary school after those intensive softball trainings. Those like crazy push-ups and whatsoever.

So we made dumplings today- amazing, I know. Haha.

And I did something really bad today. I don’t think I’ll ever forget it. I can’t believe a word could really make such a impact and like yeah. I can’t even believe it came out of MY mouth. Seriously! I was so traumatised later, I just had to walk away. Sigh. I mean, everyone has been telling me it’s fine, but really!

Oh yes, I decided to resume blogging again, cause I’ve apparently been terribly missed. Haha. Okay…

Alloc8 is so annoying. Seriously, I don’t understand why we have Alloc8 when all the tutorials are like FULL. So how on earth are we supposed to switch classes around?!?! Pfft.

Not exactly looking forward to the start of uni, really. I don’t know actually.

I was just having one of those life conversations with some friends the other day. It just boils down to that million dollar question- staying here after you graduate? I DON’T KNOW. Sigh… Seriously, it depends on my situation then. I realised that I could just graduate when I’m 20 and go back to Singapore and work and then… I don’t know.

The job I want to do… really risky I would say. Ultimately, it’s all about where God leads, really.

Sometimes, I really wonder whether I am more busy during the hols, or during semester. Haha.

Okay, this entry is so so random.

So I’m going to end now!

Toodles world!

xoxo

Follow your heart, your intuition.

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: Intuition by Jewel
Mood: Happy!

So what did I do yesterday? Slept a lot! On Friday night, Debs and I worked through the night till 3am, then we slept. I woke up at 6am. Tim, Colin, Andrew and I rocked up at the place that Scott was working at and surprised him. Louis joined us at college square. Yes, how shocking that Louis got up at 6+ in the morning.

Slept again at 9am and I finally got up at 3+ in the afternoon. Didn’t do much, really. Watched August Rush, and then I went to Steven and Chien Ying’s place again at about 7pm! Had a yummylicious dinner. I’m not quite sure what it’s call, but it was some chicken noodle thingy. Super yum! Then I went to pass Tim some stuff, and we called the Singaporeans again! Cause they were all in Sharon’s place celebrating her birthday! How fun!!

And today… well, haven’t been doing anything. I’m like really bored, hence, I’m blogging. Pfft. And it’s quite bad really, cause I know I can actually spend this time doing qt or something. Pfft.

I was on postsecret.com again, and I saw this postcard regarding favouritism. I think it’s a really nasty thing. Even in the bible, Paul clearly stated that we are to show no favouritism towards people. I guess it’s because other people will feel hurt, and maybe less important?

And I just don’t think that trying to make it up is the way to go either because after showing all those goodies, and not giving it away is plain nasty. And then the person feels hurt.

And then this makes me question myself… And I think I’ve hurt people through that way.

And then it also makes me question myself… Has anyone made me feel this way? I suppose so.

And then it makes me question all of you… Has anyone hurt you like that?

And then it makes me question again… What’s the best solution to that? Keeping in mind, that it is still biblical and done out of love.

I don’t know really.

I think I’ve screwed up heaps of friendships along the way. Sigh.

And I realised that if people want to get to know me fast, the best way is not only to talk to me, but to read my blog. That isn’t exactly very good, is it? I give out too much of myself to the unknown. And I should spend that time with God, and just tell Him everything. Instead of revealing bits of myself to unknown people- well, sometimes, they are unknown.

I think I’m going to go a blog fast soon.

Toodles.

xoxo

Friendships never end.

Venue: Tim’s apartment
Listening to: Friend by Susanna and Magical Orchestra
Mood: Happy!

I just went to Steven and Chien Ying’s place for lunch =) The carbonara was so so awesome =)) Happy many many! Stayed for about 2 hours and just talked rubbish! Fun stuff! In Chien Ying’s words, I’m the “only one with the heart to stay” Haha. 

Right now, Colin, Tim and I are together and we’ve been talking about the weirdest things. Even things like OCDs, and analness and whatnot.

So I’m going to have dinner here with them, Jon T and Kern =) Yayness!

Weezy says hi =)

I’ve been doing all right everyone! Judging from how much I’ve been blogging, it’s kinda obvious that I’m super free and bored and whatever.

I’m trying to think of something interesting to blog right now, but I can’t really think. I think my brain kinda dies slowly during the holidays.

Okay. I don’t like tele-marketers. I really don’t. But it’s so ironic isn’t it. I’m one of them right now. Sigh. The things we do to get the full experience as an international student and to understand how our parents feel when they earn money. Hee. What absolute nonsense… and we know that. So why am I working again?

Honestly, one, there’s nothing better to do these days. Two, I should just make myself useful- seriously man. Three, my parents also want me to do it. Four, it’s really the experience that counts. Lastly, who doesn’t want extra cash? HAHA. 

I’m surrounded by funny people. Really. 

I don’t know but like I’m really thankful for what I have now and I truly appreciate the people who are around me. I mean, they can annoy the crap out of me sometimes. But I love them heaps <3

I guess it’s all about the thing about acceptance. I mean, sometimes, I don’t understand how some people simply can’t accept their cell members. It’s incomprehensible sometimes how you can spend heaps of time complaining about his or her flaws, but can’t spend the time to appreciate him or her for being who he or she is.

I’ve got the most interesting friendships sometimes, and if you can’t accept my friends, then I don’t think you’re really my friend. I’m sorry, but that’s how harsh it can get at times. 

That’s why I say to some of you…

Thanks for being you =) For being transparent… more like translucent really, and for being genuine. 

So we love everyone! 

Listening to: Wannabe by Spice Girls

We only got 4 minutes to save the world.

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: 4 minutes by Madonna ft Justin Timberlake
Mood: Tired!

8 hours of work today! Today was better =) But I’m never going to do 8 hours again. 5’s probably my max. Seriously. My boss is really nice and my team leader’s really friendly and nice too! But he drinks like 4-5 bottles of V a day, which is just nuts! Max intake it supposed to be 2! Then again, no one can beat Sanne! Hee.

So what if you’ve only got 4 minutes to save the world? To save all these lost souls?

So many misses. So send my love. And don’t be too late.

Sometimes, it’s just a matter of whether it will too late before you say that you like the other person. Like my trinity drama! Oh mannnn!

I miss all you people in Singapore and I know you guys are meeting later tonight for supper! OHH MANNN! Yummy yumyum!

Anyway… to all college square people who are in Singapore or are going back to Singapore, this is just for you:

Please call me when you are approaching cs cause I want to welcome you back with a big hug!! Cause you guys are terribly missed and I will miss you guys!

Oh, and Mr Basil died. RIP. Sorry!

Oh I caught hancock with Jane, Debs, Tim, Nick and Andrew just now =) The camera was kinda shaky, so I felt kinda sick after a while. Poo. Movie was not bad… Interesting I would say!

Okay, it’s like coming to 5am soon. I want to sleep!

Toodles world!

xoxo

We don’t need no more that he said she said.

Venue: Kern’s apartment
Listening to: He Said, She Said by Ashley Tisdale
Mood: Happy but Tired!

First day of work. Interesting I guess. Didn’t make a single sale, which is nasty really. And I’m convinced that 1 of my 3 bosses is racist. Poo. There’s one who is like really really darn nice. The big boss is kinda neutral. And the other one is just poo.

Oh, and I must make at least one sale tomorrow, or in his words “my job will be in jeopardy”. And he says I talk funny! Poo! I don’t have a funny accent. I speak normal clear concise perfect English. Poo.

My other boss is really understanding and he tells me that most of the people here are just like blah and annoying. And people just like slamming their phones down at us.

Okay, I’m not going to continue bitching about work. For the entire day, my heart was just like “anointing and favour, Lord!”

Please pray for me everyone!

It’s not a mundane job really. You meet all sorts of people at work, and you call all sorts of people as well. Rude ones mostly, but still okay!

Had a nice dinner with my UL! Went for Korean =)) Yayers!

Okay, my life is currently quite boring, so there isn’t much to say really!

Toodles world!

xoxo