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And I’ll do anything you ever dreamed to complete.

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: Slide by Goo Goo dolls
Mood: Tired

I’m not hyper at all. Coffee doesn’t even work on me anymore. I think now it’s just more of a psychological thing. Sigh.

Anyway, exams are coming. And yes, the three words would be “stress stress stress”.

Just a strong suggestion to everyone… don’t bug me the whole of next week. It’s swotvac [don't ask me what it stands for. I don't know either]. Basically, it’s a one week study break and I really need to study. I need to cram 4 subjects in that one week. I don’t know how that’s going to happen, but it MUST happen.

Basically, I’m SUPER behind time and yeah.

Oh, just an update on my assignment marks. I’ve been doing pretty well for my commerce subjects [Accounting, Econs and QM] It’s been all H1s I think… And I got back my psych essay today, I got a H3. Honestly, I’m okay about it. Seriously. And honestly and hopefully, I hope to keep my grades that way. H1s for my commerce ones and probably a H2 for psych?

I’ve been worrying too much for my own good. Sigh.

On a lighter note, I actually tried a pair of converse while I was at Melb Central today and it didnt look too bad. Yes, yes, be very proud of me. It was a black&white double-tongue one. It has 2 laces [black&white], so there were like 4 strings. Hee.

I actually wore sneakers out yesterday okay! Surprise Surprise. You know, I haven’t worn shoes the whole of this year, I couldn’t even find my socks at first! HAHA.

Ah well. Gotta go for class. Urbanlife tonight =)

And then we’ll come back to square one.

Toodles world.

xoxo

There’s a heart that must be free to fly.

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: Reflection by Christina Aguilera
Mood: Happy! Unproductive though…

So what is it that you want in life again?

Anyway, HI EVERYONE!

I’ve been pretty stressed due to the exams and it’s honestly quite a pain, really. AND IT KILLS.

BAHH. I’m scared, really. Especially for psych and QM!!

QM!!!! Seriously, I don’t understand why people want to calculate probability. Chances of it happening is still ultimately coincidence and stuff. For example, the probability of annoying me by making me do QM is 99%, but there’s still that 1% in which I won’t be annoyed. But because we are limited human beings who think we’re so darn smart, we think that’s how it is. But the truth is, how do we determine whether it’ll be that 99% or 1%?

SIGHHH.

Thinking of H1s make me scared already… Honestly!

God, pull me through. Your faithfulness never fails to amaze me. Through You, I can do anything!

Yayness =)

Okay. Time to study.

Toodles world!

xoxo

To love You from the inside out

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: From the inside out by Hillsong
Mood: Bleah?

Everything has been pretty all right. Really. Inner champ last night was so so good and I honestly can’t wait for the last two sessions because it’s going to be awesome awesome prayer sessions.

I never realised how the words that come out of my mouth can make such such impacts. And honestly, it scares me because I’m so so negative about so many things and like, I just haven’t been shining His light the way I should have been and have been misleading so many people. Okay, maybe not many in the thousands of hundreds. But every soul counts. So yeah. The people either take on my negative attitude, or just view me in a negative way. Sometimes, is perception really reality? Someone could think I’m really nice but someone else could think that I’m just undignified. Geex, I don’t even know if that’s the right word to use. But ah well.

So yeah, that’s it. I remember talking to Ming Huei and Mel last year and we were just saying that I can be pretty self-centred [And no, they didn't say it. I mentioned it and they asked why and I kinda justified that negative trait of mine]. So it is honestly not surprising when I hear it continously at times.

Contrary to populat belief, I actually do know heaps of my negative traits. As for my positive traits, I kinda never find out until people tell me. So yes.

So whenever I say I love people. Perhaps, I’ve gotta think twice again. Cause if I love them, they should be placed above me. But do they, really?

I think it all boils down to seeking God, and having my heart right with Him. And then everything will fall into place.

Oh goodness, this is such a negative entry, which defeated the purpose of my entry.

Sheesh. Better end here now.

Toodles world.

xoxo

Something’s just about to break

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: The Diary Of Jane by Breaking Benjamin
Mood: Tired from the highness? Haha.

Yesterday was so retarded and fun =) Had an awesome catch up with Val. I believe in you so so much dear =)

Then Grace came over to cs first and I made Ming Xian let her in first and crash his place cause I wasn’t around and at 5:30pm, while it was silent in Brunetti, my phone vibrated and someone told me to pick up “my child”, Grace Goh from the childcare centre and I would be charged if I don’t pick her up! Super retarded and funny la!! Haha. It was Ming Xian, DUH! And Grace was like so laughing at the background.

Then I headed back home and the three of us went all high and crazy. Laughing and squishing and all that rubbish. Seriouslyy! Then Jiawen came over and we had a yummylicious dinner together =)

Then they left and I hung around cause I was so so tired from the highness. Diane came down later with coke float =)

Today, I nearly went high as well while I was with Diane and Ming Xian. Seriously.

And I went for a 9am class today! Awesome, isn’t it?!? Yes, I know =)

Going for inner champ soon =)

I like my space =)

I think we missed our moment. That very moment, the right one. It couldn’t have been wrong cause I was never wrong. So I don’t think so, I know so. I know we missed it. And there just aren’t such things as second chances, I suppose. Sorry.

Oh, and you, of all people just had to send that text more than a week later. My goodness.

Carpe Diem!

Toodles world.

xoxo

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Venue: My apartment
Listening to: my typing and the msn windows’ sounds
Mood: Happy!

You know… I’m finding it increasingly harder and harder to blog these days. My mind just has absolutely nothing or something.

And like Uni has really made all of us all-so-jaded. But I honestly can’t deny that I think uni days are the best time of my life.

I went shopping at bridge road today! With Fel, Diane, Debs and Jane. Then had dinner with them [minus Jane], Grace and Carmen. Then we came back and watched a chick flick and then Ming Xian, Diane and I walked Grace and Carmen home. Then we ended talking in Grace’s place till like 2?

Ohh! Yesterday was fun! Had dinner at Diane’s place. There were Grace, Carmen, Debs, Val, Jon Tan, Tim and Ming Xian. Then Carmen, Debs, Diane, Audrey, Ming Xian, Tim and I went to watch a chick flick [what happens in vegas]! Finally! A midnight movie after so so longggg! Really needed it.

But that also means I’ve spent a lot of money over the past uh. 2 days. Bad bad bad! 

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I miss you (all).

Sometimes, I just wish things weren’t that hard and we could just come clean with each other. But I know that will take a lot of courage. And I don’t know how would things be like during our breaks and whatnots.

You’ve got no idea how sometimes, I just want to run up to you and say that I love you so so much and that you’re the most amazing friend ever EVER. But that takes courage too. Although you’ve like faded and all… you’re still an awesome champion.

Sometimes, I wish I could just run up to you and give you a huge huge hug and say that I don’t think life would be the same without you. And although it sounds so so cliche… I really mean it.

I will miss you (all).

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Sometimes, the people who you wish don’t read your blog, read your blog. And sometimes, the people who you wish read your blog, don’t read your blog.

Murphy’s lawwww! BAH. Detest that law! 

So this is what blogging is… expressing things I can’t outwardly. Oh dear, that’s really bad. Oh dearr.. not good. So I should go and tell those people that? Egh. Don’t think that’s possible. We’ll see…

All right! I’m sleepy! And I’ve gotta wake up early tomorrow. BAHH.

Toodles world!

xoxo

The more time that I wait, the more time that I waste.

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: Jump by Madonna
Mood: Drained?

My birthday surprises have been awesome. Thanks guys =) Esp to like the planners and those who did crazy things like lugging luggages to Sharon’s place. Special thanks to Grace, Debs, Ming Xian. I know you guys went mad planning Diane’s birthday and mine. Special thanks to Diane as well. The adventures of Diane and Ming Xian shall never be forgotten! Haha.

So basically, on the 8th, Diane and I got surprised at 11pm. Then on the 9th, Grace treated me to a yummylicious lunch and then I got surprised at night at Shar’s place by the Urbanlife and some of my friends! We celebrated Diane’s birthday on Saturday at Universal! And people “broke into” her house prior to that to clean her place. Hee.

Yes, although I kinda expected the surprises, I was really surprised by the steamboat at Shar’s place. But I really appreciate it a lot. I heard a lot about the effort you guys put in and stuff.

So yes, I had an awesome eighteenth! Once again, words can’t express how thankful I am to ALL of you who made it so so special!

I’m officially legal and I feel really old. It’s scary, really.

Like we don’t give presents sometimes, we just treat each other to meals. Or like we give alcohol as presents. You know… that sort of stuff. We no longer “hang out” or “go out” whatsoever. We catch up over coffee.

I think I’m growing up too fast. Growing up is fun, being grown up isn’t.

I visited palmerston with Diane and Ming Xian just now, and it’s like… my gosh, those people are young man.

I guess I’ve grown so much in that one year… it’s actually scary.

Oh yes, mother’s day!

Happy Mother’s Day to all the amazing moms out there!

It’s really funny to see how everyone has changed in one year. Can be nice, can be nasty. It varies, I guess.

I don’t think I’ll ever forget the day we left. And then you left. And then I left again.

So, what’s going through your head again? I’m officially confused. We came, and we left. Or did I go and leave?

Just… don’t ask. It just gets harder and harder each day.

Toodles world.

xoxo

silence…

Venue: Grace’s apartment
Listening to: random people talking and typing.
Mood: High? Stressed?

Hello everyone! Assignments are seriously the most annoying things in the world and I honestly don’t understand why we have to go through such tortures, but whatever.

Anyway, I’ve been sleeping at like 4:30am for the past 2 nights, and I honestly think that I’ll be sleeping again at that time tonight considering the fact that it’s close to 2am already and I’m still like uh. typing away now.

Other than that, I’ve been good =)

Oh. I’ve updated my birthday list again I think.

And please… I honestly don’t want to receive 10 earphones on my birthday. Thanks.

I love you all heaps but my assignments are calling me! poo

Toodles!

xoxo

I heard a story just the other day

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: I believe by Planetshakers
Mood: Tired but Happy =)

Yeah, so why exactly is Shiyou up at 3:50am? Well, she did a 1100 word essay in one day [afternoon+late night actually]. I’m so so awesome! Haha.

Now I just need to complete my 500 plus minus 10% component and I’ll be done! Hence, I don’t need to apply for extension, I just need to apply for special consideration! And yes people, I’m still a bit ill, but God is healing me! Awesome stuff, I know.

My exam timetable is out and it’s kinda crappy.

10th June- Accounting Reports & Analysis
11th June- Introductory Microeconomics
12th June- Quantitative methods 1
16th June- Mind, brain, behaviour 1

How crappy can it get? I like exams that are like 12, 14, 16… You know… that kind. Not all squished together or like 12, 13, 15 then suddenly 26 either. You get the point!

It’s amazing, really, how God has put me through all these and like become the person I am today. But I must say that I’ve been neglecting Him terribly because of these assignments. But excuses, I know. Not even counted as reasons okay!

Love is so not overrated. If I say I love you, I really mean it. I don’t say it for nothing. It’s like saying sorry. I’ve only said 3 sorrys in my life, and trust me, I remember every single one of them. Unless I say the sorry casually. But even the casual I love yous, I mean it heaps.

Zai’s right- hugs are overrated. But well, it’s part of this country and the culture and everything. But it’s fun! I like hugs a lot =)

Don’t get too close. It could hurt.

So yes, toodles world! I’m incredibly sleepy, I don’t even know why I’m blogging. Seriously.

xoxo

Send revival to this land.

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: Save Australia by Planetshakers
Mood: Sick…

Hey people! I’m feeling awfully nasal, sick and yeah. Please pray for me! I really need it! My assignments are like due soon and like, I haven’t done anything about them =( HELP! I didn’t do anything tonight la. And tomorrow’s supposed to be my “IF I DONT FINISH IT AT NIGHT, I CAN’T SLEEP NIGHT!”

I intend to like go to the nurse tomorrow to grab an MC. I really need it, and I’ve got half the mind to skip my dental tomorrow. PFFT. I think I might actually postphone it to next week cause I feel incredibly gross.

So yes, we multiplied yesterday and it was good =) I’m really amazed at how God’s doing it and what God’s doing in our urbanlife.

My new urbanlife has 5 girls and 10+ boys, and the other urbanlife that Wei Ying’s taking over has like 15+ girls and 3 boys. Hee.

So it’s really interesting. But I know why and yup, God’s just amazing!!

I can’t wait for the next urbanlife =)

I got so much out of my catch up with Jane today. It was incredible.

I declare healing upon our lives right now, for those who are unwell and sick. In the name of Jesus, we will be healed and well! By Your stripes, we are healed. It is written. And I seal this in the name of Jesus. Nothing can come against us!

There’s so much to this song… I just want all of you to see it.

Save our nation Lord
There’s nothing we want more
This land of hopes and dreams
Lord bring us to our knees

Hear our cry oh Lord it’s time
Heal this land Lord send Your fire

Save Australia
Pour Your Spirit out
On this nation
Send revival to this land

Do it through us
Do it in me

Bless this sun burnt land
With Your mighty hand
Take our hearts and lives
So all may know Your Love

Save our nation

You can change it to Singapore or whatever. But you get the idea =)

I heart planetuni <3