Yes, congratulations, you won a millionaire invitation.

Venue: Diane’s apartment
Listening to: No Te Veo (Remix) by Casa De Leones
Mood: Happy =D

Woke up at like 1+ today. Quite nasty right? Studied a bit and had Phaik to help me with econs! Tung came over too to study!

Grace says hi! Haha. Anyway, I decided that I’ll make myself useful later. Kurn, Grace and Diane are in the kitchen while I’m here uh. doing nothing. Well, Grace is here too now. Hee. But she just left. Hmm.

Going to study again later with Mh! So tiring la. Seriously. Sigh. Studying is painful. Oh man! The repetition of /s/. Sibilants! I actually remember my sec 4 lit stuff. Okay. Seriously. This is kinda going nowhere.

I lead a highly stressful life. I get random mini heart attacks and like yeah. It honestly amuses people at times, and then it amuses me afterwards. Hmm.

I realise that I really have love-hate relationships with heaps of things… and with some people. Not many though.

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: Bounce by Timbaland ft. Dr.Dre, Missy & Justin Timberlake
Mood: HAPPY!

I think I just had one of the best times ever with Grace, Diane, Tim, Jon Tan and Ming Xian!

Tim came over with a peace offering for Diane and I. I knew it was freddos. KNEW IT. Hahaha.

We were supposed to play monopoly, but that didn’t happen. We just ended up talking and it was funn =) We talked about a lot of things and it was just… interesting and amazing. Miss those talking days heaps! So yes, as you can tell, Ming Huei and I didn’t actually study in the end. Haha.

And we know the trust is there =)

Hey, you know how sometimes you just want to run up to someone and hug him/her? But unfortunately, that isn’t the way the person might appreciate your love and concern? It’s really kinda funny when you think about it.

My love language? GUESS! Hahaha.

2i<6u

Toodles!

xoxo

Because tonight I’m so inspired.

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: Broken by Seether & Amy Lee
Mood: Hungry?

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I ate so much at Sharon’s place and I’m so hungry now. I just had 3 pieces of smoked salmon and I’m eating corn now. Hmm.

Oh. And the amount of butter and cream that I’ve consumed over the past 2 days are kinda worrying now. I think that it’s extremely possible for me to have put on some weight. It doesn’t help that I can feel my metabolic rate slowing down. I actually can feel the cold these days. Scaryy…

You know how sometimes when you first meet someone and like you feel that something might happen… like something more? Even if it was a mere 5 seconds glance. Kinda like a special relationship/friendship whatsoever. Or like you just automatically see so much more in that person knowing that he/she has heaps of potential to do heaps in church ministry, in school, at work… or even in your life.

I want to be that kinda person where when I enter a room, things will change, atmosphere will shift, miracles will happen. I want to be an anointed woman of God.

“Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all” Proverbs 31:29- This I’m living for.

I honestly think that I’ve come to a point in life whether I’m not young and I’m not old either. It’s kinda tough… being stuck in this stage. I’m 17 turning 18 and I’ll graduate in 3 years [Dec 2010]. Technically, I’ll be 1.5 years ahead of most of my friends in Singapore. Scary isn’t it? I will be 20. Most of my urbanlife members who are still in uni are older than that.

Oh God. This is really quite tough…

You know it’s amazing how we can get annoyed with the people we care the most for? It’s all about putting expectations in the relationship/friendship, isn’t it? The closer you are to a person, the more you love that person, you get annoyed more because you place expectations. You wouldn’t be too annoyed or iffy or whatever with a person you don’t care about.

And right now, I think I can feel it. It’s quite funny really.

Toodles

xoxo

Listening to: Step Up 2 soundtrack

You know all the right things to say.

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: Too little too late by Jojo
Mood: Prancy! Haha

Didn’t do much today. Did a bit of work. A bit! Haha. Studied with Ming Xian and Diane. Well… we spent most of the time eating. Haha. Then I went to Brunetti to meet Val and Diane went to meet Jon. Then Jon came with us to CS to print his assignment. Tim popped by and Diane and I actually scolded him prior to that. It was kinda funny really.

Went to Grace’s to watch Titanic! Haha. I know. Classic!

Then while going home, Diane and I pranced and laughed in the cold rain! It was fun =D But I had to take a hot shower after getting home. Don’t want to fall ill!

By the way, it’s been raining cats and dogs in Melbourne. It’s quite crazy. I don’t think I’ve ever experienced so much rain in Melbourne ever.

Contrary to popular belief, I’m actually really good with household stuff and kids. Really. Being good at something doesn’t mean I like it though.

Oh. And how come I’ve seen such stuff and all? I’ve always got my ways around things. I do spend my time doing useful things you know. Hee. Just that I don’t really mention them. People find it extremely shocking at times. But it really shouldn’t be. People around you go through all these too and like… they’re normal people. I think that’s why I never find anything too shocking. I think…

It bewilders me at times. Hmm.

Okay, it’s like close to 3:30am now. So yup!

Toodles!

xoxo

Summer’s over for the both of us.

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: Summer love by Justin Timberlake
Mood: Satisfied =)

Went to chadstone today! With Mel, Ming Huei, Ming Xian, Yihui and Junwei! Didn’t shop much. Just bought a white top and hand cream. HAHA. Yup.

Went to Steven’s place for Carbonara with Diane, Steven and Chienying! It was yummylicious =) Really enjoyed myself!

Inner Champ yesterday was awesome! Ps Sam talked about faith and Ps Debbie talked about the power of forgiveness which was just amazing.

You know how your thoughts are just circulating round and round and you can never conclude? Oh dear. It gets kinda creepy at times I supposed. Sometimes, I really don’t understand. And everyone knows how it pisses me off when I don’t understand certain things. Certain. That’s the key word.

And when I met her… things just went wrong. It really doesnt help when nasty things happen after like good things. Sigh.

We shouldn’t have met. Really.

Tired. Toodles.

xoxo

“A girl should bury her heart so deep in God that a guy has to go through God to get to her.”

I send up a prayer and I’m onto another one thousand

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: Rescue by Youth Alive WA
Mood: Happy =)

I had a blast at dinner ytd at sharon’s. It was so fun! With Sharon, Steph, Val, Rosemary, Jon, Ben and Weixiong! I finally got to watch Val dance =) It was so so good!

Today’s Resurrection Sunday =) Awesome-ness.

Because You die and rose again =)

What so good about good friday? Because His hand forgave us all! And most importantly, He tore the veil and lived again!

So anyway, met Hon for lunch today! OMG. Haven’t seen him for like forever! It was fun =) And because everything was closed, we went to church like super early.

Oh! And I bought new earrings today! I was so excited about it that I told everyone about it and wore it on the spot and kept my other earrings. HAHA.

AND I SO NEED TO GET DOWN TO WORK! BLAHHH. What kind of holiday is this??!?!

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Shiyou, did you just ruin everything?

Listening to: Shine On by Ryan Cabrera

Take this for just what it is.

Venue: Sharon+Rosemary+Fel’s house
Listening to: If you had my love by J Lo
Mood: BORED.

Hey world. I woke up at like 1+ today and had lunch. Then I decided to go grocery shopping before I go back to sleep or something.  And before I know it, I came to Shar’s place. Haha.

Hence, I’m staying for dinner =) Which is totally awesome so that I don’t need to cook and wash up! Haha!

Things didn’t all go as plan yesterday. Sigh. But it’s okay =) Cause I had heaps of fun helping Tim for the bbq! Yayness.

The bbq was awesome-ness. SUPER FUN and SUPER COLD. The wind was insane.  Before the bbq, we watch Step Up 1. After the bbq, we watched Futurama- something that kills all our brain cells.

Seek first the kingdom of God because then, everything will fall into place. It’s hard but I’m going to try and try really hard. Can’t be that bad =)

So my easter holidays are here. Assignments are here. Need to catch up on my school work. Obviously my first day didn’t work out too well cause I’m here slacking and doing nothing at all. Haha. Finding something constructive to do really isn’t my thing at times. Hee.

I think I’ve come to a point of my life whereby I’m not too young, but I’m not too old yet. It freaks me out at times to note that when I’m some of my friends’ age or rather, when I’m not an adult yet, I’d be working. I would graduate when I’m 20. And I’d definitely be getting a job before I turn 21 because I graduate in Nov ‘10.

What a way to spend my 21st, isn’t it? Slogging away in an accounting firm.

Oh wait, am I thinking too far ahead?

And before I know it, 3 years will just fly past.

At least I’ve something to believe in.

But I wonder, are there people who believe in me?  And do I believe in others?

I’m turning 18 this year, and I would be very appreciative if you guys don’t celebrate my birthday, but that doesn’t mean I won’t be appreciate of presents. I’d still like the gifts, thank you very much. Haha. What a way to cut cost!

And currently, what I really need is just a pair of new and good earphones. But please. I don’t intend to receive 10 earphones. So yes.

HOLIDAYS! I might be going to puffing billy with Audrey and her mom and other people on Monday! I need to go back and check my schedule. Heehee.

And I think that is really a time to see what I mean to that person and the other person and whatever.

You know how when everyone’s talking about you and they just don’t go straight to you? Sigh.

Toodles world!

xoxo

Listening to: Rumours by Lindsay Lohan

I want to know why you can’t find a way to just let down you guard.

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: You will only break my heart by Delta Goodrem
Mood: Feeling of yay-ness! HAHA.

Had an mg gathering- Dinner + Step up 2! Awesome-ness! The movie was quite good. Not fab, but good. So yup! Just that it’s a real rip off to watch movies in Melb.

It’s the last day of school today. Awesome-ness again. Tomorrow marks the start of my easter break. I really need to break but I’ve got assignments to do. And it’s really quite a nutcase. Sigh.

I honestly think that the month of July will be one of many testings. It’s a one-month break for crying out loud! Hmm.

I realised that I don’t really know what’s going in my friends’ lives right now. There’s just too many secrets going around and maybe that’s why. Not that it really bothers me sometimes cause ultimately, if they perish and die, it’s their problem. I know that sounds really harsh. But hey! If you don’t want to help yourself by telling someone that you’re in this crappy misery, then honestly, whatever. I should correct this, I don’t just mean secrets between people, but secrets that you keep within yourself and can honestly kill you.

There’s just this part of people in which we totally want to keep to ourselves and we just think that we’re protecting ourselves when we do that. But honestly, is that really true? Sometimes we just think that we’d be judged by others or we’re not worth the person’s time or whatever.

Random: I’m hungry!

Okay, I’m alive and eating now!

So anyway, obviously we’ve gotta be careful of who we tell our stuff to. Remember, there are always people out there who love you and truly want to protect and help you.

But I didn’t say that I belong to that category totally.

And there are also people out there who flipping don’t give a crap and probably 1. weren’t ever listening to you or 2. just want to know and like manipulate you or whatsoever and this often results to gossip.

Okay. I’m really sleepy and tomorrow’s a really busy day. And I sincerely hope everything will go as planned tomorrow.

Meeting Scott for breakkie. As for lunch, diane’s mom is treating fel and me. Then I’m meeting Weiying for coffee. Then I’m meeting Rosemary to help her with her lit exam and then bbq at night at tim’s =)

Fulfilling day =)

Another random note: I don’t really know what’s going through my mind about that whole thing.

I’m sleepy but my hair’s wet and I refuse to blow dry it. So well. I shall wait.

Toodles world!

xoxo

Did you get my message?

Venue: My apartment
Listening to: Did you get my message by Jason Mraz
Mood: Tired but fulfilled =)

I’m so zonked that I can’t really remember what I wanted to blog about. Sigh.

Oh right. Just for all my concerned Singaporean friends… Uni’s been fine and I’ve got an awesome 3-day week. YAYNESS. I start at 10am everyday =D. And nope, I’m not attached. Church’s been so so awesome. So yes =)

I don’t know. But I’m just that kinda girl who had weird thoughts. For instance, if my girlfriend and I like the same guy, I’ll actually feel heaps better if she tells me, knowing or not knowing whether I like the same guy. Besides, I’ll probably find out and it’ll be terrible if it weren’t from her.

Oh! Diane’s mom bought me a top from Valleygirl. This top which I really really wanted and it’s flipping on sale now. Yayness! I’m going to wear it tmr!

Okay. I just went down and come up and ate my first packet of mee goreng in like 6months or something. HAHA.

Toodles world.

xoxo

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Venue: My apartment
Listening to: Tränenschwer by Juli
Mood: Confused?

Okay, there’s no title cause I flipping don’t understand German and hence, I can’t spell it anyway. Thanks to Audrey Goh, I’ve been listening to German songs since I came back about a couple of mins ago? The songs are honestly quite nice but for crying out loud, I don’t understand them. Maybe it’s time for me to pick up a foreign language instead of being so adament on doing Chinese next year. Hahaha.

I honestly don’t understand how things are working out and what’s going through my friend now. I really want to sit down and have a good talk with her. But I don’t know how. I mean we’re friends but there’s something else attached to that relationship that we aren’t ‘just friends’. Hence, I don’t know what I can do now. And no, we’re not lesbians if that’s what you’re thinking. I AM PERFECTLY STRAIGHT. And she too. Thank You very much.

Random: WHAT AM I GOING TO EAT FOR DINNER?!?!

Okay, anyway, seeing how things have been turning out, I honestly don’t know what to think. It’s not even about what to do, it’s about what to think! I feel like I’ve been brainwashed or something.

And today, someone asked if my mind and heart are telling me different things. And yes, they always do. How annoying right? And no, it’s not just directed to one issue but for all issues. Sigh.

Back to square one.

Aiyar, basically, I’m just confused about nothing!!!! Sounds stupid, but silly things happen okay! Pfft.

Okay, whatever. This is just getting darn pointless.

Toodles world!

xoxo

Listening to: Wenn Du Lachst by Juli